not like this.....

Monuee.... when I started writing this blog I never though I would ever face this day my sugar left me alone and went away I am sorry for being so mad at you so angry so many complaints, just come back once and we will fix it baby I wish could make a deal with the lord for this,

I read the previous posts 2 years old and I am so glad I have it here, you have given me so many memories thought me so much in life, eddu you were the craziest guy I ever meet and and I will always remember you for all the things we discovered for the first time.

Baby i promise you in the next life I will be with you forever and wont let you go away, I wont my sweetheart

please come back I miss you so terribly

I miss you

I really miss you, i hope I am you were the same like before, i know all this sounds like a complete crap to you but i want you to show me your love,

I expect your calls i donno why and i have scrapped about it even before, i will stop it one day, i always told you I see my future with you when you completely ignore me I want to live one life with you not just separately.

I understand you were working so i gave you miss calls and finally called you when i got so desperate and also because I knew you will never callme if I left everything to you. Its so weird that you did not get even 5 minutes to call me from 6 pm to 10.30 pm, it just cant be true ……

I guess I know what to do next, I will just leave everything on you on the call and communication part… me meeting you on weekends is restricted you know why …

Really parting ways every day

Rude Dude!!!

Baby I am praying that your exams go good, but can hold my self from seeing you everyday, this is really part of habit donno if its good or bad, :(

I had a rocking time with you in the cafe today especially when you spoke about the “Rock Bottom” day :p it was fun I enjoyed troubling you that day

I liked the way you respect women, you are really one women guy and I am proud to be your women….. (gal)

some one says this

"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle...rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be."

but that seems utter rubbish to me as living and growing together made our love so strong for each other ..

Sunrise is the most important thing in the world

I am in office right now, very depressed because we just some moments back and you did not understand what I was telling you,

Any was I am leaving for home at 5 and i wanted to meet you as we were not going to meet for next 8 dayz but looks like that hardly makes any difference. I understand that you have a lot of work and that you are going through a tough phase at your workplace but I hope that you can at least take out 5 minutes of your time and call me….

Some times I feel so stupid to keep on asking you for your calls and attention when i know I cannot get it. when we were at your place yesterday I cried, I cried because I knew that for now you will be with me but when I am away you will forget me.. frankly I will really not miss you much when you go to NJ because you have kept things that way.

I just wanted to tell you this through my blog that i will not be calling you while i am away cause I want you to call me, i want you to miss me and i want some more attention then sunrise, You hurt me when you said that you have to go to sunrise so you cant come and also that yatish is going to be with you so you cant come to see me .

Nywas, I love you a lot and will miss you, I wish you call me and meet me but no hopes for now.

- Going away everyday

Will be away & right back

19 March 2009

As i am gonno be away for a week, me and sweety decide to meet today at his place all seems to be working out right only with a little problem “Dad”, so we figured out that I will have to stay away for a while, i take some rest at my friends place, Then meet my you, we have a great time together and I was happy to take a good decision of meeting you today, I look at your VISA its beautiful.

the reason I could not hold my self and started crying was because i was thinking that you are going away from me day by day as we have limited talking on da phone and I understand that its because of your workplace, also we do not meet a lot, But I really miss you a lot. its funny cause we are still here and together, I am worried that you should not be leaving before I am back from Jabalpur.

I still miss you, your calls, your sweet face and your touch

Love you baby

new jersey here we come …

Today is the the day when you go to the US consulate for Visa approval, you went home early yesterday slept good, woke up early and i pinged you good morning, you spoke to me while you get ready, I wish you luck, mum does that too, we all pray for you and Austin is going with you.

I call you to wish you luck and pray harder that you should be making it through.

8:39 am – Austin calls and says that he has been waiting for you for a while now and does not know if he is supposed to leave or stay back, i ask him to stay, he is just roaming about

9:45 am – I could not even wink and after trying your cell phone for sometime which was unreachable i call Austi, he is still there waiting for you, mum told him too, we were worried if you will just leave without watching out for him

10:45 am- you called up and gave me the good news, i just heard it and was so relived that i slept, had a good sleep.

14:00 pm – I called you and you told me how was the interview you said that it does not make any difference to you but I could sense your happiness.

I am so so glad that you could make it janu. love you a lot, say hi to US and rock on as you always do!!

Please stay away from that female whose pic u showed me, she looks desperate !!!

By the way forgot to tell ya, you ahve got a fantastic caller tune, i know its very special, its about us ….

back

Back to my diary.. After a long time, we have been through quite few things in these days we fought, we cried we hated each other, we laughed and we fell in love again, now I have decided to be with you what ever it takes for me to do that.

This is diary for you baby,

I am sorry for telling you things that I should never ever have, I am sorry for getting some one between us whom you hated. I am sorry for being very rude to you

Date: 14th March 09, Saturday

After you spend the last weekend with your team mates at loha-gard i was looking forward to meet you today but i knew i couldn't do it as my dad was at home and was gonna leave tonight, so i had to be at home, but i could meet you in the morning, you came i saw you, you were looking so nice in the new black tee. I could not speak to you after you were home because i know you need to sleep after working so hard at office.

I miss the times we were in Wipro where i could at least see you whenever i stood up, now i have to wait until mornings to see you and i feel very bad when you cannot come sometimes, but i understand although it may seem to you that i don't

Date: 15th March 09, Sunday

We spoke on the phone in morning our plan was to go to Bandra with other 2 people, initially i was not very happy about it but then when we started I was ok, I was happy because i had you with me, i was happy, but i did not like it when you even being with me were not speaking to me, you were tired and were not feeling very nice as you slept very late the previous night because of preetu’s birthday, I was unhappy that you were not happy being with me or you were just irritated, so i put her in between and fought with you, i am sorry about that.

when i changed to my shorts you did not like it at a glance when everyone did, but later you said that i was looking good.

while coming back i loved it when you hold me so close to you, but i was getting a sad feeling inside as i knew i will not be meeting you like this again in few days

That’s why i was not very happy with other people coming with us.

In the night you called me from Raja’s place you were so so sleepy and tired but you still insisted to talk to me, i love do it i was so touched but i understand that you have to take rest an be with your friends i do …

Date: 16th March 09, Monday

Mom said that we have to go to passport office today so i did not meet you, you called in the morning saying in a cute voice that you wanted to see me i loved it but i was so helpless as mum wants me to spend time with her. Later she told me that we will not be going out as she wants to shop for some stuff for the trip.

I could not meet you in morning as you went home early today because you had to get the Visa interview next morning.

I prayed that this time this should go through, you should get something you deserve.

I want you to move ahead a ladder of your career, i want you to be successful even if you have to be away from me for a while

as each day passes by i realise you are a vital part of me

Thankyou baby for choosing me !!!!

I am still playing with words to describe how much you mean to me, I am certainly not a princess but i have got a prince in my life who loves me a lot, cares for me and understands me. Thanks a lot baby for choosing me as your partner.

I wish to be with you like this forever and always My life would have been so diffrent so empty so waste without you, I cannot image even a moment without you, Every needs someone to share there joys and sorrrows, but i need you to live. It you go away I might stop living, and you alwayz turn up when i need you which is the most beautiful part.
I still remember the day when i was alone at home with sore-eyes and you brought me food and nursed me without caring about developing the disease and i felt so lucky an so special i didnot want to leave you and wanted to sleep on your shoulders because i feel the safest there.
I love to sleep on your shoulder as I feel i am with my man and do not need to care about anything in world
Muahhhhhh............. Love you !

Our Song.....

This is our song that we sing together and mean every word of it to each other ...................
This is again for you baby!

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your Fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
I'll be everything you need
I'll love you with every breath
truly madly deeply do
I'll be strong
I'll faithful
coz i am counting on a new beginning, a reason for living, with deeper meaning ing yeah.....

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna live like this forever until the sky falls down over me

And when the stars are shining brigh in the velvet sky
I 'll make a wish send it to heaven and make you want to cry
The tears for joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
when we are surround by the comfort and protecting of the highest poweres
In lonely hours where tears deviour you

wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna live like this forever until the sky falls down over me

Oh can you see it Babe dont have to close your eyes just standing right before
All that you need will surely come ..................

Places we hangout

When it comes to roaming out we are opposites Edwin likes to go to a place which is full of natural beauty like waterfalls, mountains, of river and he can stay there for a long time. He like to watch birds and bees and play with animals he knows all the facts about gardening plants and plucking fruits,

I am a complete no-no to nature stuff, i love shopping, movies and playing games in malls but edwin says thay are a waste of money and they really are but the good thing is my baby never stops me from doing any thing that i like. Like I love shopping at Bandra as there are peppy stuff there and I just cannot go without a bargain on the other hand Edwin hates gouing to bandra as he had to walk a lot carry the luggage and take care of me as its a crowdy area and also we have to travel from Vashi to Bandra which is a pretty long distance. But whenever I ask him out for shopping he never refuses it.

That is the one thing I love, How much ever he hates that thing that I enjoy but he never asks me to restrict my self or change my habit or stop doing it.

Donot ever try to change the person you love, because if he changes he is not going to be the same person and you may not love the changed person

But we love going to the Cafe and having pasteries, coffee, hukkahs pizzas and having 'us' time and talk a lot about the him, about me and about us.

I love to cling to him and hold him as we talk and then when he kisses me and tells me that he loves me. I cannot sit next to him and not troubling him, I love to play with his ears and bite his cheeks, which iritates him a lot

For My sweetheart

This blog is dedicated to my sweetheart my love, my life. I alwayz wanted wanted to do something so that he knows how much i love him, I wish you like this honey.......

Like it is alwayz said life is worth living when you spend it with someone whome you love and he loves you back, I am one of such lucky people who have got such treasure of love and happiness, I have thousands of moments to cherish and remember and many events to list. I will try to include evey bit of my memories so that i can remember them when i pull this blog. This picture was taken in an abandon ship at Alibaugh where we went for picnic